| Wowie! I cannot believe there's only a day left until Christmas. I sat here today thinking, omg tomorrow is Christmas Eve! Uhhh where have I been?? Yep. Well this year hasn't exactly been the greatest, but not the worst either. But Christmas definitely will not be the same this year. It won't be better than other years, that's for sure. Know why? Family. Good 'ol family drama. Lots of people in my family are depressed, sad, or just not happy. Then it affects others around them in the family, so we're all sad because those people are sad, etc. I'm sad. Yeah, surprised? Nah. I don't even know what I'm saying right now. I'm really sleepy, and yet I'm sitting here writing this. It's one of those times where you do things but you don't know why you're doing it. Back to my very interesting family drama...it's just not good. My sister decided that we're not putting up the Christmas tree this year. That's fine. It was always exhausting to put it up and put it away anyway. Save ourselves the trouble. But take away our Christmas spirit. The only thing Christmas-like in my house right now are the candles (mmm pumpkin candles smell soo good, same with sugar cookie candles) and the gifts, which are in my sister's room instead of under a tree. For some reason, I looked at the pile of presents we got for my little cousins and it looks so small compared to last year's or any other year. I suppose it's because the gifts are much smaller in size. I don't know. It was really hard to shop for them this year. Kids grow up and their tastes and attitudes change, you just don't know what they like anymore. You pick up a toy for 3+ and you think it's so cute, then you stop and ask yourself, how old are they? Or you find something you know the kid liked last year but you ask yourself, would they like this stuff anymore? Omg it's ridiculous trying to please these children. I hate it when they open their gift and look at it with a blank stare, then toss it aside and wait for another present to be handed to them. You selfish little monsters! Haha. sighhh. It's times like these when you start thinking a lot about life and such. I don't know if I like it. All this thinking gives me a headache. Well, I'm really looking forward to baking tomorrow. Every Christmas, my mom bakes these really yummy French cream puffs (? I don't know what's it called in English, it's something like that). I've made it with her a few times throughout the year. Finally wrote down the recipe because if you ask my mom how much sugar (or any ingredient) to put in, she won't know the exact amount because she's that good. Haha. Well I think I've got it down. Especially the filling. Omg that stuff is finger-lickin'-good. I can't wait! She's putting me in charge of it this year. I'd be happy to. I also promised my little 10-year-old cousin that I'd drive her to my house (I have yet to drive a little kid...I'm going to scar them for life with my awesome driving) and we'd bake cookies together....from scratch instead of just heating up the prepared dough that her mother buys from Costco. Those are really good though, Otis Spunkmeyer cookies. Oh-so-good. But I want to make not only chocolate chip cookies, but also peanut butter spirals again (those were awesome), and "perfectly chocolate chocolate chip cookies" with peanut butter chips this time....or the Reese's mini peanut butter cups for baking. Oooh. I even bought Christmas-theme-color-spiraled morsels (whatever you call it). I looove baking. Hehe. I can't wait!! But yeah, I spent fifteen minutes just typing up this really long entry. It was fun. This helped. Now I'm more excited for Christmas. I hope everyone has a really awesome holiday and winter break. Merry Christmas! |
